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20 feb 2012

2012-02-20T19:35:00.001+08:00

2012 isn't a good year, February is never a good month.. Life's great during January. It's just a month away. I met a few new friends and got back a group of good brothers. They are the ones who showed that they care through actions. But look what's happening right now. Everyone is drifting, apart. Quarrels after quarrels, problems after problems. When will this stop? I just want things to be like how they were in the past even if it doesn't include me in. I don't mind. It's pretty upset to see things changing so negatively out of the sudden without any warning. Separated into two. I always thought the day that we're aheading Singapore Zoo is getting near. But why is this happening? How long more to go so that I can go Zoo with everyone of them TOGETHER? I really really miss those days..

09 Jan 2012 - Sick .

2012-01-09T22:02:00.003+08:00

+ Danny, they are the bestest gift that I could ever get from God, really.
I'm the youngest among them, but I've never felt being leftout whenever I was out with them. They will always include me in when there are good food, fun and good things. How great to have themn with me. All of them treats me like their own little sister, always there to protect me. They are always there to care, especially during this period when I fell sick. They were the ones who mentioned to bring me to see doc, the ones who asked me to recover fast so that they could bring me to eat good food, the ones who always remind me to take med, drink more water & etc.. I'm really glad that I've met them, I really thank God.

First day of school and yes, I fell sick again. It's damn bloody horrible. I lost my voice.. Terrible. Seen a doctor but it doesn't seems to help at all. I'm half dead now, yes that's the feeling. I'd rather die srsly. Whole body aching, stomach cramp, sore throat, cough and flu, all came and visit me at once.. Can I just die?

31 Dec 2011 - Last day of 2011

2011-12-31T21:34:00.003+08:00

Last post of year 2011.

Today is the last day of year 2011, and I shall flash some memories back here before the clock strikes 00:00am. During this whole of year 2011, I've gone through many ups and downs, be it with family, friends or whatsoever.

But, I still glad that I've met them all. Especially Karen, Junting, HongAn, AlvinQ, Yongyong, Junming & co (Sorry if I left anyone out, I couldn't think of any more names) I'm glad I've met them in my life, they're really great friends who knows how to appreciate what you've done for them and also always there when you need help or feeling down.

Of course, those are people that I've met during the year of 2011. Not forgetting those that I've know for years, Emily, Weisiong, Ken, Henry, Beekee, Bryan, SuetYee, Jinhui, Kaineng, Roger, LianPeng, Junxiang, Ahhong, Jolene & co (Again if I left anyone out, mind really blank now)

They are great too! ^^v

At the same time, during these 365 days I've also met some jerks!!! What do I mean by that.. Guys that just simply loves to flirt around!! Or telling you that they are serious in you YET do stupid things behind your back. I seriously HATE such people.

And also during this year, I managed to see some true colours of some friends. People who doesn't appreciate what you've done for them. People who only thinks for themselves. People who talk and acts differently. People who can't be original & many more. Well, No longer giving a damn to them. They just simply don't worth my time and effort :)

Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVE! <3

18 Dec 2011 - Mbk

2011-12-18T23:22:00.003+08:00

MBK - 2nd of Dec 2011

Drinking session with sists! & I met 2 new friends @ MBK that night. Junting's love & HongAn (Ah Go Go) ^^ HAHAH. Enjoyed myself drinking with them! Hopefully we can go drink again REAL SOON. :) Wanted to thanks KEN KOH for driving us back home on that day too. ^^

OHYA, Karen is now in Tai wan :( Miss K session with her seriously. Wanted to sing so much but got to endure as she will only be back on early January and also due to me working every day.. No life, sad life, whatever.

On a happier note, she brought Selina's EP for me although Singapore's ones already out. -.- Hopefully there's some different between Taiwan's and Singapore's :) Cant wait for her to be back to Singapore, I mean Selina's EP. Oops HAHA.

08 dec 2011 - Standard Chartered Marathon

2011-12-08T18:46:00.002+08:00

Standard Chartered Marathon 2011

It was my first time helping out in Standard Chartered Marathon. For the past few years the one and only thing that came to my mind when I heard this marathon was Road closure. You can never imagine how much I dislike road closure especially when I was going for work. But now if you were to ask me again, my answer would be very different.

Well, I still find it boring, wasting of time and meaningless when I was still aheading to F1 Pit Building to gather and as well as collection of our uniform. Because all we did was wait and wait and still wait for instructions.

But it gets slightly better when we reached our destination. We were being assigned to serve 100 plus drinks to the runners. The person in charge of our station estimated that the first runner might reach our station at around 6am, therefore we were supposed to get prepared and ready for drinks at 5.40am. But who knows, the first runner ran towards us at 5.35am. Drinks were not ready, he took 2 EMPTY cups. I don't know about others but I was feeling rather guilty. Try to put yourself in his shoes and you'll understand the feelings. I had been 2.4km NAPFA before, I know the feeling of needing water to keep you going. Moreover he ran for 42km leh! SIGH.. Ok, then I got even excited after that. Mayb for the first 100 runners? It was HELL after that. You can never imagine how busy we were. My body was full of 100 plus leh! No joke. From hair to toe. Tsk, damn pathetic. I threw away my school shoes on the spot. Can imagine?!

However, it was a fun and good experience though it was really tiring. I kind of enjoyed myself over there BESIDE waiting for transport. Really, that one really can kill people. We waited for about 2 hours I think? Sitting at the road side leh! I still think that the whole event wasn't well organised... Tsk, really wasted. But still, a fun trip! Especially the bonding part with my classmates. Because I've never thought I'll spending a night with them like this... -.- Anyway still a good try! :)

06 dec 2011

2011-12-06T20:23:00.002+08:00

WHAT ARE WORDS?
WHAT ARE FRIENDS?
BULL SHYTS.

18 Nov 2011 - aimlessly.

2011-11-18T22:35:00.002+08:00

Since when I became so speechless towards my own blog.. Wanted to blog so much, but my mind is totally blank right now.. It's like walking around the whole Singapore aimlessly..

04 sept 2011 - my love

2011-09-05T00:28:00.001+08:00

如果你被他伤得很痛请感谢他好心折磨
如果你对他感到愧疚请感谢他慷慨磊落
在我们相遇相爱之前都会有他让你成熟

如果你现在孤独寂寞请感谢这美丽等候
如果你还在为爱犯错请感谢还没找到我
要走完每个曲折以后我们才懂爱是什么

如果庆幸我值得拥有请感谢我被放弃过
如果欣赏我坚强温柔请感谢那珍贵伤口
在我们相遇相爱之后遗憾都会变成守候

当我们终於紧紧相拥所有苦难会甜美结果
我们就耐心漂流爱会来的在对的时候

Photos

2011-08-17T23:31:00.002+08:00

04 August 2011 - Forgive

2011-08-04T21:05:00.002+08:00

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down, probably will.. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder everytime. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll blame a new love for things that an old did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take many pictures, laugh too much and love life like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend being upset in a minute of happiness, you'll never get back."

But what if I found no reason to be happy? I didn't want to waste 60 seconds of my one minute of happiness to be upset too. But what else can I do? Beside learning to forgive, there's nothing much I could do. And forgiving doesn't mean forgetting. Forgiving doesn't mean you were right. Forgiving doesn't mean I'm fine being used. Forgiving simply means setting myself free!

I can never get tired of "外套".

我早该知道你只是偶尔的需要. 习惯了你的味道挡风成了我的骄傲.
每个心跳开始都计算不到. 难道给我的回报只是陪你在他的怀抱.

做你的外套只能穿梭你的外表听到你对他的撒娇可笑的是我没资格计较

做你的外套拥抱著却不被拥抱我是谁你知不知道怎能随便穿上又换掉

我能拥有什么答案早就明瞭. 学会哭也能笑.怎么不听劝告怎么不被想要
还在为你效劳会不会疯掉还在为你效劳你知不知道?

past tense

2011-07-26T00:00:00.002+08:00

I just came to realize that NONE of your words can be trusted. How dumb can I be for the past 3 months. Thanks dude, you really did it! You ruined our friendship by your own hands. I don't remember me treating you bad. I don't remember me looking for you ONLY when I was bored or alone. I don't remember me running to you when whoever dumped me. I don't remember me throwing you aside immediately after whoever came back to me. I don't remember me treating you as invisible when you were just right in front of me. I don't remember me taking our friendship for granted, but YOU DID IT ALL AT ONCE.

Trust me, I'm not cursing you BUT you'll really get your retribution someday. You wont be able to escape this. God is always fair to everyone. We shall wait and see. I really wish that I do not have to see you around again. What a great disappointment. I didn't expect you would do all this, really.

I swear to God, swear to whoever is reading this post of mine. Today will be the last day I talked about you. Fake friend indeed. No point talking about you, you just don't worth my time and effort to save this friendship. I just wasted 3 months on you. All the best to you.

14 july 2011 - Realistic.

2011-07-14T22:46:00.004+08:00

Realistic
How realistic can a person be?!

Someone whom I thought is real, someone whom I mistaken as a good person. I was so wrong! No, don't tell me humans do change. This is crap, humans doesn't change as time pass. I mean, nothing is gonna change with the characters. Just like leopards doesn't change its spot, isn't it? At one moment, you were so nice, so thoughtful, so faithful. And then out of the sudden, you became so strange, so cold, so far apart. And suddenly, all became my fault. Yes, my fault. But for your information, I wouldn't be like this if you really did nothing.

My dear friend, I used to convince myself with ALL your explanations, how stupid can I be seriously. Now I've started to ask myself, out of hundreds, thousands, millions of words you've said, just which are TRUE? Maybe, MAYBE most of the words that you've said were real. It's just that you said at the wrong timing to the wrong person, which is me.

She left you hanging with pains. She left you without thinking of your feelings. She left you without giving you a warning. She left you without an explanation. You felt disappointments, you felt upset, you given up hopes. You know yourself best of the feelings being left hanging without an explanation YET you're doing the same as she did. Well done. Now that she's back, you left me alone wondering just what the fcuk is wrong with you, come and go as and when you like. And today, I finally found the answer. You're just using me. Substitute is the word. Well done. But my heart isn't a hotel, it's not like as if my friendship worth nothing at all. Please drop the idea of coming back if she were to leave you again.

08 july 2011 - east coast

2011-07-09T23:26:00.004+08:00

East coast ♥

Have been going east coast park for the past few days! I missed sunset when I was there with Karen and Loewe. And then I missed sunrise when I was with Nicholas, Ken and Danny. I totally feel like a failure lo! What the hell. K, forget it. Serious headache now. Time to rest, goodnight!

30 June 2011 - Promises.

2011-06-30T23:21:00.002+08:00

Promises.

Can anyone define this for me? If you were to ask me this question, I would say "Nothing." It's totally nothing to me now seriously. Whenever I chose to believe in it, the result will always be disappointments. It never failed to give me disappointments. Really.

Trust me. If I were to leave, that's it.

28 june 2011 - trusts

2011-06-28T23:00:00.003+08:00

Trusts.

Something that I didn't want to give, something that I'm so afraid to have towards anyone. Once twice, thrice.. Countless of times I trusted countless of people, countless of times they took it for granted. What is trust? It's definitely not something that can be gained so easily. I used to build up trusts to people whom I thought that they simply derserved it.

Are you trying? I am. Trying my very best to maintain our friendship. But it is impossible for us to get back to how we used to be. We're really close to impossible. I've been drawing a line in between us, so as to prevent myself crossing over. Lucky I did, or else I don't know how many more disappointments to go. It seems to be so difficult for me to trust you again. Even as a friend, a normal friend. Never did you know just how much courages I've took just to build up this trust. Never.

2011-06-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

Last minute gathering <3

That's it. No one to be blamed, both of us changed.

24 June 2011 - Dead :(

2011-06-24T01:46:00.004+08:00

Wow!

Hey, I finally got the time to update my blog. Yes, like a finally yeah! Who's still reading my blog? When Facebook, Twitter, Talkbox and even Whatsapp are on trends now. My blog is so dead, so dead and still, so dead. Totally dead.. Sad case! :(

Well! I just can't stop myself from wow wow-ing ever since this guy stepped in my life, Alvin Quek!! Not forgetting Karen Toh & Loewe Lee too! Whenever I heard myself or other people "Wow!" I'll really think of them. No joke! Well, recently have been hanging out with this crazy girl (below). And Loewe, someone who's always willing to do stupid faces with me! ^^ I just realized I didn't had a chance to take photo with Alvin Quek yet!! Hopefully one day he's WILLING to take it with me so that I've got a collection of photos with many people! :)

I always got scolded by people for doing stupid faces when photo taking sessions!! ): WHY!! What's wrong with that?!! Interesting and funny ma! Am I wrong? :(

OHHHH. I'm sick, like wtf AGAIN! Just like what Victor always said me, forever one! Indeed, FOREVER ONE. My throat, my gastric, my backbone like forever wont recover one man! This is hell torturing!! :( Why is God treating me like this? :( Guess I ate too much "good foods" and God is "envy" of me! Hehehe. Joke joke joke! I wna recover fast so badly. :'(

Ok, I swear for my own sake, I'm gonna CUT DOWN my all time favourites ok? Mac, kfc, ljs, pizzahut, bbq chicken & etc. I'll try my best to cut down once I've got the full collections of those cups! :) It's 2.21am now, gonna have my med and off to my bed! Goodnight!

* don't always say I'm evil. A photo (below) to make you laugh for a sec (at least).

04 June 2011 ; Photos

2011-06-04T23:02:00.004+08:00

02 June 2011 ; Jo's birthday

03 June 2011

18 May 2011 - 不作你朋友

2011-05-18T22:44:00.002+08:00

慢慢失忆所有和你的事情必须忘记. 爱的盆地深怕在一滴眼泪就会决堤
我也不想被你肯定在这个时候说我让你感动过
别握住我的手说我一定会懂作不成的爱人变成最好朋友
别牵著我的手想著别人脸孔换个方式牵手并不会更好过
可不可以不作你的朋友?
慢慢心痛没有人发现我和从前不同. 你的眼中看得见另一个人给的感动
我也不要你心疼我在这个时候对我比从前温柔
应该放晴的天气还下雨别这样下去我难过但是说不出口
可不可以别回头 可不可以就放手可不可以不作你的朋友?

10 may 2011 - used to be.

2011-05-10T20:56:00.002+08:00

Used to be as one. Now??

09 May 2011 - story book.

2011-05-09T14:46:00.003+08:00

HELLO.

One word that describe me best now, tired. Really, I didn't know accounting student's life would be like this. Okay, maybe it's because I'm working part time too. Ahh, whatever. I've been thinking a lot lately. What if I really stop working who's gonna support me? I mean, buy whatever I want without having to take money from my parents? People who know me very well, know that I DISLIKE to ask for money, be it parents or boyfriend. I want to earn money all by myself, buy things for myself, pamper myself. And also, if I really stop working, am I really got to rot at home too? Sometimes I'm really lazy to go out. Irritating issues right!

Recently I bought a story book about a girl being betrayed by her own boyfriend kind of story. I don't know why but I just like to read/watch stories like being raped by own father/boyfriend, or being betrayed by boyfriends. I'm not pervert la please, just very curious about those stories and want to know more about it. Oh and I mean true stories not like those make-up stories one. So not realistic.. Anyway, that story book isn't that bad, I've read about 3/4 of it and I find it not too bad.. I don't really read storybook you see.. So if I bought it and read which means that the story is really quite nice. HAHAHAHAHAHA! K la, joke! But it's really a nice book to read when you're bored. LOL.

AHH, fine. I don't know what else to update. My eyes are shutting down soon. Got to take a nap now and meet my study-mates later on to study of course. LOL. BYE~

07 May 2011 - 我不难过

2011-05-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

又站在你家的门口我们重复沉默这样子单方面的守候还能多久
终于你开口向我叙说她有多温柔虽然你还握着我的手我已不在你心中

我真的懂你不是喜新厌旧是我没有陪在你身边当你寂寞时侯
别再看着我说着你爱过别太伤痛我不难过
这不算什麽只是为什麽眼泪会流我也不懂

就让我走让我开始享受自由回忆很多你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱你比谁都懂虽然寂寞这会是我最后的宽容

抱紧我再抱紧我这一份感动请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错爱到了尽头
是非对错就让他随风忘了所有过了比你快活

不要再说也许这是最好的结果
现在分手总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手离开你左右
我向前走这会是我真正的解脱

May 06 2011 - 爱我的资格

2011-05-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

把手放了我也许会比较快乐
我也许会换个情人我也许不会再撑
真的够了能不能让雨别再下了
能不能让心别再疼了能不能不要开灯

我们的爱跟着你写的剧本出现了越来越多的角色
我是你什么人如果不是情人是不是不要再浪费我的人生
你比我更清楚你对我多好多温柔多认真不构成爱我的资格
除非你只看着我想着我只有我爱本来就该独一无二

为你伤心多一点少一点流下的眼泪都一样不值得
世界上那么多人只有我一个人能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了

26 April 2011 - Studies.

2011-04-26T21:12:00.004+08:00

Can anyone save me.

Just one week ago, I've just started to accept my school days without my awesome girls. I've just started to accept my life full of numberings. I've just gained some interests in accounting. But now, just because I cant cope, I feel like giving up every single things.

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20 april 2011 - Talk

2011-04-20T20:02:00.004+08:00

I just woke up from my nap just few hours ago, had my dinner and I guess maybe I ate too much though I only ate like half bowl of the laksa that my mum cooked. Shyt me seriously, have been weeks since I lost my appetite towards good foods! ):

2nd week of school.

If you ask me if I'm happy with my school, course, classmates and etc. I can only say, classmates are pretty fine, at the very least they know when to be serious and when to play around. Other than that, everything just sucks to the max like seriously, no joke. :)

Just went to Macpherson ITE today for some talks. Every year the same thing, really can die over there. It doesn't motivate me anyway. The only thing that can motivate me to study harder is result. If I've got a very good result for my first paper, I promise I'm gonna work harder for it. Otherwise.. I'm just gonna slack like last year... Boring max.

And I got this stupid spot check on Monday and I get caught for short skirt and shoes. To be frank, I really dislike that lady who nagged at me when I didn't speak a single word for getting caught. Why is she able to be a lecturer or even a DM when she doesn't even give her students the basic respect. This is so pathetic. I really hate her, really really do.

Oh oh oh! Did I mention that Victor and Huijuan are now in the same school as me now?! Omg, so fcuking happy can. Though we're in different courses right now but at least still able to see each other in school. Some of our lessons starts and ends at the same time, therefore still can go to school and back home together. Hehehe!

Alright, gonna stop typing here. Shall go back to twitter. Goodnight!

19 April 2011 - Give me a break.

2011-04-19T23:39:00.002+08:00

I've got so much to say, so much to share, so much to shout it out loud.
What's wrong with me? I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken, is broken and I'd rather remeber it was at it's best than mend it and see the broken pieces as long as I lived. I needs a break, give me a break.

17 April 2011 怕安静

2011-04-17T00:00:00.001+08:00

我又帮自己订了场电影结果坐在广场找你背影
人来了又去我好怀念迟到有人会发脾气

手机有收讯简讯不是你打开了更让人失望到底
你走就走吧干麻留下每天没看完的韩剧

我想我真的怕安静少了你吵我不开心
回家第一个开机掩盖所有的安静说不定我能够撑过去
我想我真的怕安静连洗澡都要戴耳机
打电动声东击西一停我又怕想起念我和爱我的人我没珍惜

你爱的歌手又出了专辑一样好听可是特别痛心
歌词每一句根本办不到还硬劝我要放弃

把闹钟设不停或许我会清醒
我想等下去可惜爱不能靠毅力
要是我挽回你你一定更伤心
爱一个人不一定要永远在一起

真的怕安静不想去也硬要出去
逛闹区到KTV点你必点的歌曲怎麽合唱的人不是你

原来我这麽怕安静是怕再也听不到你
在厨房大声唱歌在沙发硬跟我挤
让我终於晓得我有多爱你你已不在这里

16 April 2011 - Emily's birthday.

2011-04-16T23:06:00.008+08:00

Hello hello hello.

Yesterday was a great day out with them~

Yes, babygirls~ BCEFJ- Beekee, Carolyn, Emily, Fangxin (me) & Jolene. There's a reason for our meet up of course. Hehehe, quite a last minute decision after so many failed plans. Hahaha! Alrighty, it's a lovely girl's advance birthday celebration. And she is...

Yes, it's her. :) Hope she enjoyed the surprise and of course my handmade booklet! OHYA, she didn't cry yesterday!! Like what I told Beekee yesterday, if she doesn't cry then I'll cry and also change my name. But~ it was just a belated april fool joke. So.. Why so serious? HAHA! :D

I swear that the Pizzahut's services located at Kovan sucks to the max! We waited for seats for about 10 minutes when there were many seats inside and nobody even bothered about us! We don't grow up eating glass la please. That isn't the end of the story. We waited for our pizza like 45 minutes without anyone telling us something just bloody went wrong inside the kitchen! :/ And then~ Of course birthday cake time!

That was the way we ate the cake.

One of the photos I did for her. Hehe.

Then toilet time which means photos times~

Lastly, we went to eat supper at mac. :)

Phew~ Finally part of the photos are up! Ok, I admit I was not really in a good mood of taking photos yesterday. I don't know why too, I know I don't look good in those photos. But who cares right? That's me! Hehehehe. Well, I really enjoyed myself yesterday ALTHOUGH I ate too much. I think I gained back the 1kg that I just lose. :< It's okay, once in a while ma, right?! Gastric ah gastric, please help me~

Lastly, I LOVE ALL OF THEM! Really really do! :D

12 april 2011 - I hate school.

2011-04-13T23:36:00.002+08:00

I HATE GOING SCHOOL. I really do.
Can you imagine.. School days without Qingyan, Meijun, Huijuan, Adallyn, Kyrine, JunHao, Desmond & co. Really sucks to the max. Totally no mood to even make new friends. I really miss those times in school with them. Seriously, we should start to cherish what we've got now before it's gone. Now that I know the feelings, I will cherish each and everyone even more! I don't care, I'm gonna meet up with them like real soon!!!

Weetz, just received a good news from Huijuan! She's coming back to school next monday! Though we're in different course now, but who cares right. We still get to see each other in school or even after school! So happy for her! Hopefully Junde and Desmond can get in to study too! :)

Got to sleep, there's SCHOOL tomorrow. ZZZ. Endure!!

07 April 2011 - gathering

2011-04-07T23:05:00.004+08:00

Yesterday I met Qingyan, Meijun, Huijuan, Kyrine, Adallyn, Ivan, Roger & co. Gave Kyrine a advance birthday celebration in advance. Not counted as surprise as she somehow knew our plan already. Toilet's fault la! LOL. But anyway all of us enjoyed it. Ok, sorry I think I should correct my sentence. At the very least we girls together with Ivan and Roger enjoyed it. :) As long as the birthday girl is happy, that's enough.

I'm so SORRY to say, I don't live to please every single people on Earth. It should be a enjoyable gathering for all of us but part of it ruined. Late, black face, attitude, fake smile. Such a great disappointment yeah.

And Today, I met Lydia Teo, JinHui, Lian Peng, JunXiang, KaiNeng, Roger & his gf to slack. Such a good gathering. No one is late, no black face, no quarrel, no fake smile. LOL. Indeed childhood friends. HAHAHA! Being dragged to ave 8 to accompany Junxiang for dinner. And only managed to go back home at around 9 plus. :) LianPeng guessed correctly, once I on laptop, you wont be able to hear me complain tired, sleepy & etc. Hahahahahaah!

04 april 2011 明知道我爱你

2011-04-05T00:09:00.001+08:00

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定放弃你忘记你只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你只想永远永远爱你你知不知道我也没关系

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定但为何到如今我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你假装不在意多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你你知不知道真的没关系

31 March 2011 - 谢谢你让我爱过你

2011-04-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

感觉天气冷了就加件毛衣而不是急着躲进某个人的怀里
这麽简单的常识我竟然忘记直到你离去才回复记忆

还可以呼吸心跳也还规律只除了寂寞它还不肯马上就平息
相恋和失恋如果说都需要练习一次学会两种也算好事情

谢谢你教会我爱需要两颗心谢谢你示范了什麽人该放弃
谢谢你提醒我痛会唤醒勇气谢谢你曾让我这样的爱过你

只要睁开眼睛就有好风景再不用苦苦等你偶尔的好心情
这种简单的快乐比玫瑰美丽我相信伤心会慢慢痊癒

29 march 2011 - 突然好想你

2011-03-29T23:33:00.001+08:00

最怕空气突然安静最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终於让自已属於我自已只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你你会在哪里过的快乐或委屈?
突然好想你突然锋利的回忆突然模糊的眼睛.

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行然後留下最痛的纪念品?

我们那麽甜那麽美那麽相信那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

最怕此生已经决定自己过没有你却又突然听到你的消息

26 march 2011 安静

2011-03-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信, 牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份包容你也接受他不用担心的太多我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

2011-03-25T23:03:00.003+08:00

Friends.
I've got many friends, hundred of them. So do you, isn't it? But hold on a second, please do take a minute of your time and ask yourself a question. Just who are your true friends?

No, I didn't ask for good/best/close friends. I asked for TRUE friends. I've got my answer for my questions. I've some true friends.

Especially Doreen, we don't always talk, meet up and stuffs. But there will be no ending of our conversation once we meet up. She always give me a feeling of sistership. Thanks girl <3

Jinhui, Junxiang, LianPeng and even Roger, once in a while I would receive calls from them asking me for meet ups. Though I always rejected them due to working life but it really touches my heart. At the very least there's one thing that I know from all these calls, they still remember me, I'm still part of the group.

After stepping Bishan ITE, I know clearly just what's true friendship. People who tolerate my temper, give in to my bad points and always gives me chances to show my good points. People who will never forget me when there's outing. People who makes an effort for your special day. People who are there to give you suggestions, advices when you met problems. People who forgive and forget each and everyone. Really thanks people. Qingyan, Meijun, Huijuan, Kyrine, Adallyn, Priscila, Junhao, Junde, Desmond, Junyang and Junior. I'm so glad that I met you guys. :)

23 march 2011 music.

2011-03-23T23:02:00.003+08:00

Wooooootz! Omg, finished watching S.H.E dvd concert. (Y)
Omg omg omg, I wna go for their live concert like now man! Sia lah~ Wish I was there man! Regretted, missed the chance just like this. Work work work, seriously making me so no life. To be frank, I really hope there's still a chance for them to come over and have another concert. And I SWEAR I WILL GO MAN! Hope hope hope, pray pray pray, wait wait wait. -.-

I watched this dvd concert like twice, seriously couldn't stop myself from watching it. Especially the part when they solo singing other singers' songs. I cant imagine myself without music. I feel like I'm listening to music 3/4 of the day. I listen to music when I'm in bus to work, I listen to music when I'm bored, I listen music so as to fall aslp till the next morning. I just cant live without music...

HAH, enough of nonsense. Shall sleep now. GOODNIGHT.

22 march 2011 - true love

2011-03-22T23:15:00.003+08:00

I don't deny that I love to watch drama about relationship, read love story books and etc. That's the reason why I believed that there's such a thing on Earth called true love. I don't like Fairy tales but I would like to have my very own true love story. I don't believe in forever but I take promises seriously. I don't fall in love easily but I'm always ready for the right one to come. I don't allow myself to fall too hard but I'm still a human, with a fragile bones and heart that could break anytime anywhere.

Friends' relationship are giving me a great heartache. Which causes me to lose faith in relationship. All I can say, I'm no longer anticipating for my very right one. It bloody hell hurts so much to see your friends changing to be somebody else!

20 march 2011.

2011-03-20T23:28:00.005+08:00

Well. I guess I was crazy yesterday. LOL. Ok, I'm really crazy, calling myself crazy. -.- I went to download a lot apps regarding photo-editing/camera thingy and I found something interesting. Then I was stupid enough to spend money to buy the full version of this apps which then made me super disappointed. I thought it would be more fun. Waliew!

Actually this apps isn't really that fun though. Just that we were too bored yesterday so we played it for like a hour? LOL. We cant stop laughing at those photos. HAHAHAH. Omg, Razi is gonna kill me if he see this. HAHA.

GOODNIGHT!

17 march 2011 - Concert dvd!

2011-03-17T23:27:00.002+08:00

Omg Omg Omg Omg Omg ! I'm a happy LADY now! ^^v

Somebody actually bought and SURPRISED me with a S.H.E's (She's the one) concert DVD! I saw it this morning on my table! It's not my sis that bought for me, most probably my dad then! Omg omg omg! I wanted to buy this long ago, just that I was too lazy to get it done! OMG! Shall watch it during my next off day which is next thursday. I'm gonna cancel all my outing appointments for this!! HAHAHAHA!

It's fun working with them (most of the time) especially when everything that should be done is done. Hahaha. All of us love photo-taking time! Can't you tell from all of the photos we took?!!!! :)

This super tall guy above can be irritating at times! Actually most of the time, especially when he know your weaknesses!!! How unlucky can I be, he knew mine and he couldn't stop disturbing me with that!! :< It's 00.00am now, shall end my post with this sweety of mine.

12 march 2011 - 不作你的朋友

2011-03-12T00:13:00.000+08:00

慢慢失忆所有和你的事情必须忘记. 爱的盆地深怕在一滴眼泪就会决堤.
我也不想被你肯定在这个时候说我让你感动过.

别握住我的手说我一定会懂. 作不成的爱人变成最好朋友.
别牵著我的手想著别人脸孔. 换个方式牵手并不会更好过.
可不可以不作你的朋友?

慢慢心痛没有人发现我和从前不同. 你的眼中看得见另一个人给的感动.
我也不要你心疼我在这个时候对我比从前温柔.

应该放晴的天气还下雨别这样下去. 我难过但是说不出口.
可不可以别回头? 可不可以就放手? 可不可以不作你的朋友?

11 March 2011 - 为什么是你.

2011-03-11T23:25:00.002+08:00

Life's bored, especially mine..
Oh my god, what's wrong with me nowadays. Something went wrong! I've been eating supper lately! Which means I'm growing fatter, heavier! NO NO NO! I didn't want that to happen! Guess I really have to do something about it. )': I promise, I swear to God, I'm gonna STOP eating GOOD FOOD and DRINKS for.. 1 week! HAHAHA. Let me try out for a week first, as it seems like a year to me if I stop eating fastfood for a month. :)

May God bless people living in Japan.
May God bless everyone on Earth.
May God bless Selina and Hao Ming.
May God bless you.
May God bless me.
May God bless all of us. :)

谁来告诉我为什么是你.
我管不了顾不了躲不掉在我的脑里心里梦里全都是你.

10 March 2011 - 很爱

2011-03-10T23:38:00.001+08:00

当你开始变沉默习惯逃避我. 爱你的心开始慌了被摇晃了空气冻结了
你转身扬起的残忍我不认得记得你说有你在怕什么绝对不会让我伤心的

是你说的你很爱我为什么要把心摔破. 你很爱我却丢下我在习惯你肩膀以后
是你说的你很爱我只是不再牵我的手幸福地图被你带走爱回不来了

当声音变得微弱讯号断续着你的承诺开始乱了断线了不能完整了
像台风侵略过以后一片寂寞想起你说有你在怕什么至少还有你会陪着我

紧握的手被你推落心终于被伤透不如就让我任性的哭个够
是你教我学会相信而我又该相信什么?

04 March 2011

2011-03-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

So much to say.
Just who can I trust? God damn it. I hate you bastard.

23 feb 2011

2011-02-23T23:53:00.003+08:00

Hello, I'm back.
Well, my sickness is still on and off, on and off. That sucks to the max seriously. One moment I thought I was okay then I will go around finding good food to eat but another moment I feel so sick again. What is this, doctor told me it was because of my flu but many people think that it's my gastric having problems again which I agreed too. :/
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I saw something at some sort like twitter/blog. No matter how brave , how strong, how optimistic a person can be, there's always a time when they feel helpless. And yes, same goes to Selina, especially at this point of time. After such a long period of suffering, of recovering journey, there are times when she feel useless but at the end of the day you will realise she did not give up, not even once. She's really a brave and strong girl.

Continue praying for her! Goodnight!

17 feb 2011

2011-02-17T18:10:00.002+08:00

Feeling so sick, damn sick!!

Med doesn't help at all, in fact it's getting worse. Should I stop eating the med given by the doctor? Hmmmm. Feeling damn weak right now, I need apples~

15 Feb 2011 . V.day. Fool agn,

2011-02-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

Baby I know the story, I've seen th picture. It's written all over your face.
Tell me, what's the secret that you've been hiding and who's gonna take my place.
I should've seen it coming. I should've read the signs. Anyway, I guess it's over.

Can't believe that I'm the fool again. I thought this love would never end.
How was I to know, you never told me.
Can't believe that I'm the fool again and I who thought you were my friend.
How was I to know, you never told me

Baby, you should've called me when you were lonely, when you needed me to be there.
Sadly, you never gave me too many chances to show you how much I care.

About the pain and the tears,
If I could I would, turn back the time.

11 Feb 2011

2011-02-11T00:05:00.003+08:00

Weeeeeeeeetz! Can I have these?! )':

06 Feb 2011

2011-02-06T22:30:00.003+08:00

Sad to the max!

I'm getting back to work tomorrow. And I.. FELL SICK again!! This sucks to the max isn't it! Having flu right now, feeling so sick! I don't think I'll be able to sleep well tonight. Lets just hope they would give me an off day on tuesday after they see my sick face tomorrow. LOL. Sounds so wrong... Whatever, I'm really not in a good mood right now.

I've lost every single things. I hate it, why I always forget things that are very important to me?! And not forgetting stupid things that I shouldn't remember?! Fcuk it, I hate it. Please get it back to me. Please God. )':

05 Feb 2011 - Photos.

2011-02-05T23:41:00.003+08:00

Day 1 of CNY

Day 2 of CNY

02 feb 2011

2011-02-02T22:48:00.003+08:00

Happy (chinese) New Year everyone! :)

I've got 4 days off straight in a row! So cool canxz! No school, no work, happy go lucky for 4 days! I've been waiting for this ever since I get to know that I've got 4 days off!! Hehehe. Hopefully I'll have extra time to meet up with some friends. :)

Well, I don't know if anyone knows. I don't really look forward for this CNY. I don't know why. Somehow, not interested and excited like how I used to back in few years time. Not even collecting red packets. I doesn't attract me now anyway..

Looks like many people are talking about their new clothes, shoes & etc. I bought some too, okay, a few only.. But wait, but why I don't feel the same. like they do? When shopping for clothes, I was real happy. That's of cos, which lady or rather who on earth doesn't like shopping? But out of the sudden, I don't feel like wearing those new clothes. I think I'll just follow my heart and see which I wna wear be it old or new. Same sentence, as long as I'm happy, what for I care so much to make myself suffer or stress?! I think all of us got to think this way too, positive. :)

I just ate one of my ex-favourite chocolate, meltly kiss chocolate and now I'm feeling abit giddy. Time to sleep soon, goodnight world. WAIT, rmb to continue to pray for Selina and Yu Hao Ming!! May God bless all of us! Once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR.

23 Jan 2011 photos

2011-01-23T23:52:00.008+08:00

I've got an off day tomorrow!!

Such a last minute decision, I should be happy but at the same time I'm feeling down too. Because after tomorrow, I've got no more off days until CNY. :/ But I should be happy as I don't have to wake up early in the morning tomorrow! Decided to clean my room tomorrow and it's time to do some exercise too! Have been eating alot lately. :/ Alrighty! Photos time!

19 Jan 2011, early birthday celebration @ work!

20 Jan 2011, actual day celebration

Thanks sweeties for all the birthday celebrations and gifts! I love them to the max! :D Really thanks, thanks so much to all! ♥♥♥

20 Jan 2011 - Birthday.

2011-01-20T23:35:00.009+08:00

Yes! Happy birthday to myself!

I'm finally 18th!! :D Omg, till now I still cant believe that I'm already 18!! :/ I kept going around telling people who are older than me that now I can help to buy cigg, 4D & etc already! And also showing off to people who haven't reach 18th. HAHA, especially Ivan Kho! :X But well, all of them know I was just joking around, right?! :)

Well. I really enjoyed myself today! All thanks to my awesome ex classmates! Photo below was taken during Huijuan's birthday last year. I haven't receive the photos we took today yet, and I don't think I look good in photos that we took today. :/ Hahaha!

Can you imagine..

We were once strangers and then we became classmates. But we don't really talk to each other so often until our projects started coming in and our conversations were all about projects. Though those days were the toughest days we had during school days but all thanks to those projects that brought us closer. Exactly one year since we know each other. One year, not too long, not too short. Exactly a year and I no longer treats them as classmates or ex classmates, whatever you called that. They are now my true friends, good friends, best friends, whatever names you can think of. We had overcome obstacles such as misunderstandings, being mad with each other over small matters and etc. I'm so glad that I've entered Bishan ITE. I'm so glad that I was in the same class as them. I'm so glad to have them as part of my life. Thanks so much! ♥

Okay, lets us go back to our topic. Birthday.
I really enjoyed myself today. Shopping at Bugis, dinner at Sembwang with such awesome group of friends! Birthday celebration with surprise, cake and presents. I would like to make use of this chance to thank Toh Qingyan, Koh Meijun, Tan Huijuan, Adallyn Aw, Tan Junde, Desmond Lee, Ivan Kho, Junior and JunYang, thanks for everything that you've done today!

And not forgetting people who wished me, once again, Thanks everyone! ♥ ♥ Time to sleep, back to work tomorrow :/ Will upload the photos once I got them! Goodnight lovelies!

*Still praying for the both of them. Get well soon! :)

19 Jan 2011 Gd news.

2011-01-19T22:47:00.005+08:00

I recieved a good news today from both media and Sandra! :')

About 89 days ago, both of them got into an explosive accident in Shanghai during shooting of new drama. People who loves them would have said this "If possible, I'm willing to use my body to take in all the pain for them." Heart pain for them? Yes, nobody wants that. They even asked for their safety many times before the actual shooting of the drama.

The male lead Yu Hao Ming, who actually suffered a greater damage from the accident.

She, a lady who always wants to look pretty, suffered burns to 54% of her body, with 41% being third degree and the remaining being second. She was glad that it was her who was injured instead of a stand-in as they might not be able to afford the medical fees or to even get the kind of care she is able to get.

She has undergone three skin grafting procedures, and I'm glad that she is showing good progress. “I don’t know where she gets all these powers to walk to where she is today." I agree too, if I were to be her, I don't think I can make it this far because she has to go through on a daily basis, she has to bear the torment psychologically too.

She turned up for the conference today. Yes, she's brave enough. Everyone feels heart pain for her, for them. We can't do much either but to pray for them. However, the journey is still a long and grueling one. May God bless them! :)

01 01 11 - new year

2011-01-01T00:29:00.008+08:00

Firstly, it's 2011 now!
So.. Happy new year everyone! :)
Time flies, getting older. ): So many things to update and it's getting late alrdy! :/

Well.. Had a real bad Christmas in 2010. Fell sick during Christmas and spent my whole day working too. So pathetic! Took some photos of my gifts, I don't know why it turned out to be upside down. -.- Well, thanks people! And not forgetting, thanks Qingyan for the mango tanktop! :)

Had a small gathering for dinner on the 28th Dec 2010, quite fun though. :) 2nd round soon?

Life is good working at Raffles outlet, because bubbletea shop is so near us!
but sadly, it's closing down in a week time. ):

I did some extra housekeeping too! LOL. I cant stand it, it was so messy!

Advertise for herbal tea. I seriously don't like it!

I seriously thinks that some humans should go and learn some manners! I've got evidences! Be it Singaporeans or people from other countries. They are so inconsiderate! I saw clothes lying all around the shop, used tissues and folding papers all around the floor as well! They dont even bother to pick the clothes or folding papers up when they passby! What if some people stepped on it and fall down? Omg, can you even imagine? Below are the photos I took last week. Real pissed off with such brainless, heartless people! Ahh, nevermind. It's a brand new year, shall forget all the unhappy stuffs :)

Got this early birthday gift from colleagues!
Thanks Fangyu, Josephine, Shidah, Shiyi, Ken, Razi and Siti!

10 Dec 2010

2010-12-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

So long didn't meet up with Doreen alrdy. Now that we met 3 days in a row. LOL. Both of us ends work at 8pm. But I'm always the one going over her shop to wait for her when my workplace is so much nearer to Mrt station!!

First day, the train we took was having problem. -.- So it took us 1 and a half hour to reach Hougang therefore we can only have our dinner at ave 8. -.- And headed home at around 10.30pm.

Seconday day, we took train to Bishan. Both of us had PepperLunch for dinner. Then went arcade to play basketball! (Y) She's so lousy canxzxz! LOL. We went to seven eleven for free drink then took bus 88 back home. :)

Today, we went Toa Payoh (?) for Burger king! We saw a pervert. What the hell! Then we went to a shop whereby it sell HelloKitty, Doremon and Melody's stuffs! But she keep drag me out of that shop! ): Thennnn, we took circle line to Seragoon and went seperate ways.

From now onwards, I'm gonna work hard for money! I wna buy laptop! I wna buy a flip phone home to play! I wna buy a lot a lot of longchamp bag! A gucci one if possible? LOL. Ohmygod, I'm feeling so tired right now.. Time to sleep! Goodnight!

07 dec 2010 - Joke of the year.

2010-12-07T22:59:00.004+08:00

I miss them! ♥ ♥

I was so happy that I'll be working at the same place with Doreen!! At least nearby. LOL. Sadly, I will only be there tomorrow and thursday! Well, better than nothing isn't it! There's still alot times for us to meet up anyway. Hehehe! Made something for her, I guess I will be giving her on thursday hopefully! :)

Well.. This is real disappointing! But whatever, it's all over. Joke.

24 November 2010 - Kite!

2010-11-24T00:32:00.004+08:00

Day out with awesome classmates! I bet everyone enjoyed themselves on that day, a great day! (Y)

Orange colour kite is mine! Which is always the one that flew away! ): Stupid bangala took my kite away! Arghh. Forget it! Gonna fly kite with them again soon! :)

22 November 2010 -

2010-11-22T23:31:00.005+08:00

Woootz! Such a wonderful day! :)

Went out with Qingyan, Meijun, Adallyn, Kyrine, Priscilla, Junde, Ivan, Desmond, Junyang, Junior to Marina Barrage to give Huijuan a surprise celebration! Waited for the birthday girl and Desmond for 3 hours. Haha! While waiting, we were playing kites there and my kite flew away! Because I was talking to Adallyn and I didn't notice that my string was running out and I saw it flying away with both of my eyes! )': And we saw some bangalas took it! :/ First time flying kite and this shyt happened! I swear I'm going there again, maybe with my future boyfriend? HAHA! :)

After we surprised her with birthday cake, gifts & etc, Meijun's dad drove all of us to Marina Bay mrt then we went to have our dinner! All of us had Pizzahut! Qingyan, Huijuan, Desmond and I shared a table and we ordered the most! Too full!

Took some photos before heading back home. I really enjoyed myself alrdy today! Thanks lovely people! Shall always keep in contact & meet up for East coast trip real soon!!More photos coming up!

21 Nov 2010 - its tomorrow!

2010-11-21T23:12:00.002+08:00

It's tomorrow! (Y)

16 Nov 2010 - 我寂寞寂寞就好

2010-11-16T23:43:00.002+08:00

Feeling so down now, without a reason. Something must have happened. :/

还是原来那个我不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么爱错就爱错早点认错早一点解脱

我寂寞寂寞就好这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好

我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到忘不了, 赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的借来的都该还掉
我总会把你戒掉

还是原来那个你是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么什么都没有早点看破才看的见以后

15 nov 2010

2010-11-15T23:23:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MARKLIN, MERVIN AWYONG, EDMUND LOW & YINGXIANG!! :) Such a big day today!

Few months back.

I've gained weight! Can I go back to few months back and I swear I will maintain my body size and weight! )': Feeling so down because I gained weight instead of slimming down! During these few months, I tried my best to control myself eating less meal and quit the habit of having fast food as lunch/dinner whenever I cant think of anything else to eat. But I still failed!! If this carry on, I guess I'll have to wear M size soon. Please don't! With the height given by God, I cant afford to grow fatter!! )': Anyone wna go slimming course with me?

14 nov 2010

2010-11-14T23:24:00.004+08:00

Still sick. )':

Seen a doctor, it's gastric pain! Sometimes feel like vomiting out of the sudden. Damn my gastric for being so weak! D: Feeling so weak and giddy at times too. What happened to me?! What's the fastest way to cure my weak gastric? I needs help! ):

Heh heh heh! I bought something cute and sweet today!! Though I don't really likes Melody that much, because of it's colour. I used to like pink colour a lot but somehow I finds it too girly now. :/ Love at first sight! LOL. And I bought one doremon for a stupid girl, Toh ah yan! LOL.

DON'T STOP PRAYING FOR THEM!

11 nov 2010 - Happiest girl.

2010-11-11T22:37:00.005+08:00

Dahh~ Game over!

Finally a happy girl now. :) Nothing else matters anymore. Hehehe! I'm so gonna love myself even more, pamper myself even more from now onwards! :) Most importantly, be myself! Like what I've said earlier, I'll be the happiest girl on earth! Bless me! :)

Andd~ I cant wait for my attachment to end! Because I'm going to meet..

Yes, AWESOME friends! East coast trip 2! It was a pity that we didn't take any photos during our first outing together. But, we'll take it this time round! Ha! So excited! Sure gonna have lots of fun and laughters with them!! :)

Time's up! Gonna get my medicine and off to bed alrdy. *Remember to pray for Selina & Hao Ming!* Goodnight! <3

09 November 2010 - 没那么简单

2010-11-09T22:24:00.004+08:00

Fell sick, again! ): Out of the sudden, I feel like playing Super Mario games! ): I want their colouring books too! Sounds like a kid but who cares. I think they're super cute. :/ Arghh.

Don't stop praying for her!! :)

没那么简单就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安只好强悍谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那么简单就能去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那么容易每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那么容易才会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂的年纪曾经最掏心所以最开心曾经
想念最伤心但却最动心的记忆

07 nov 2010 - cutie.

2010-11-08T00:16:00.002+08:00

It was my off day yesterday and we went to cousin's place. It was his 2nd daughter's full month. But she was sleeping so all of our attentions goes to this cutiepie instead of the baby. (Well, I look fat in this picture. :/ I'm gonna slim down slim down soon!)

She then went to her sister's side calling "Mei mei! Mei mei!" Cute isn't it? Hahah! Being a child indeed the best. No worries, no cruel reality, no hurts but laughters. :) Let me end my post with this cutiepie.

Goodnight!

05 November 2010 - Happiest.

2010-11-05T23:56:00.002+08:00

I'm happy, I'll be happier, I'll be the happiest girl on earth even without love. :)

30 october 2010 - 谢谢你让我爱过你

2010-10-30T20:49:00.001+08:00

谢谢你让我爱过你
感觉天气冷了就加件毛衣而不是急着躲进某个人的怀里
这麽简单的常识我竟然忘记直到你离去才回复记忆
还可以呼吸心跳也还规律只除了寂寞它还不肯马上就平息
相恋和失恋如果说都需要练习一次学会两种也算好事情

谢谢你教会我爱需要两颗心谢谢你示范了什麽人该放弃
谢谢你提醒我痛会唤醒勇气谢谢你曾让我这样的爱过你

只要睁开眼睛就有好风景再不用苦苦等你偶尔的好心情
这种简单的快乐比玫瑰美丽我相信伤心会慢慢痊癒

28 october 2010 - so dead.

2010-10-28T23:55:00.002+08:00

At this moment, I realised my heart is empty. What am I waiting for? What am I expecting? What do I actually wants? I've no idea about it. Well, I choose not to project my past on to my future. I guess I did it? I keep on moving forward without turning back. But why am I, at this moment feeling so empty? I should be happy that I'm leading my life well enough. I should be happy that I've got so many lovely sweet friends around me. I should be happy that I have more than enough money to pamper myself. I should be happy that I managed my studies and job well. I should be happy that I'm no longer softhearted, no longer trust what others' words easily. I should be happy that I dont fall in love so easily. But why am I feeling so down now? At this very moment, I'm feeling so dead. So dead.

26 october 2010 - pray hard

2010-10-27T00:16:00.003+08:00

Even if she's not one of my favourite singers, even if she isn't someone popular, I will still pray for her. Just like I prayed for that guy too. I don't know why some people have to describe them so negatively. Spare a thought for them, their relatives, people who are concerns about this matter.

Best if their skins could grow back by itself. So that they do not have to undergo so many painful operations. Till now I still cant accept the facts that they were burned so badly. God must be fooling them around, at this point of time with such thing happened. I seriously hope that they could recover as soon as possible. Hopefully they do not have to go through painful operations. Heartache for them. :/ Waiting for their good news. :) Lets pray hard for them! :)

25 october 2010 - Bless them.

2010-10-25T23:22:00.003+08:00

I was shocked when I heard of this damn fcuking bad news. I cant even imagine myself got burned, not even a little part of my fingers. But can you imagine, 40% got burned, serious burned! Heartache for both of them. )': It must be a hard time for them to go through all this. Especially Selina who's afraid of pain. It's never easy for a girl to accept such a thing that happened on her skins. And the guy on the right, I don't know who he is but he's a good man for sure. (Y)

So guys, lets start to do something meaningful. Lets pray for them! *Praying...* May God bless them please. Amen!

21 October 2010 - out

2010-10-22T00:04:00.004+08:00

Day out with Toh Qingyan! (Y)
Went bugis and amkhub today. Bought a lot, spent a lot too. :/ But I really enjoyed myself today! Hehehe. Thanks thanks ♥ Bought myself a blazar/jacket, top and many earrings! So happy to the max! :) And also, finally got the chance to take photos with her! NEOPRINTS! ^^v More to come! :)

Goodnight world. :)

20 October 2010 -

2010-10-21T00:34:00.004+08:00

20.10.2010
I just did 80 situps and I'm feeling so unwell now. :/ Slim down, I wna slim down! I'm growing fatter seriously, I've gained 2kg alrdy! Wth )': I promised myself to do at least 80 situps every night. Because I know it's very hard for me to stop eating fastfood. I can only cut down alittle, wont be eating it so often. I hope it helps me alittle each day. :/ I want to maintain wearing small size! I want slim slim slim down!

OFF DAY TOMORROW! (Y)
Finally get to meet up with Qingyan tomorrow! Got to catch up alittle, shopping alittle and of cos eat good food again~ Hehehe! Hope the weather wont be so hot/warm again. :)

Time to sleep, goodnight Earth.

You're the same as others. Upset? Yes, with disappointments for sure. I trust you so much. I believed all of the things you've said. Every single thing you told me, I believed it all. But it seems like you're treating me like a fool. God damn it, why am I so softhearted. Why do I trust you so easily? History keeps on repeating all by itself. Each and everytime, I forgave and forget. Seriously I should stop being so softhearted towards you. Trust me, I will never. I hate you, you and your lies can just fcuk off in my life.

18 Oct 2010 - BLogshops

2010-10-17T23:54:00.004+08:00

I don't know what happened to me recently. I'm somehow addicted to blog shopping. How I hope I can be alittle taller so that I will be able to wear many kinds of nice clothings. )': Can any kind soul make the cutting slightly smaller for me! :/ I'm going crazy! I've been blogshopping for days alrdy, many caught my eyes but does not have my size! As I'm growing, I keep forcing myself to maintain my weight and size. But when it comes to buying clothes, I wished I could be alittle fatter so as to fit nice clothings. -.-

I bought some from blogshops recently. But the sizes are alittle too big. :/ Shall wait for me to grow alittle fatter and taller! :)

I'm buying this lovely jacket! But in white!!!

I'm getting this as well! But I cant make up my mind what colour to buy. ): White or black?

It seems to be like an office lady-wear. :/ Shld I get this?

I'm seriously going crazy over blog shops. :/ Any blogshop to intro? Message me!

14 October 2010 - Where .

2010-10-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

Where have you been to?

11 October 2010 不够勇敢

2010-10-12T00:09:00.003+08:00

Fated, I guess.

11 October 2010 ; Happy birthday to Aaron Choo! :)
Well, today is my off day! And I finally get to meet Ngoh Ziyi! :D Met her at tamp, super dislike that Taxi driver to the max! So noisy! Damn kp, nagging non-stop! Argh. After that went to find Toh QingYan. Chatted with her awhile, she looked damn lady-like in her uniform. HAHA! :X After that went to shop around, nothing caught my eyes except for one M)phosis slipper. Went Mango as well, nothing much new for the T-shirts ): Walked around all the shopping malls in Tamp. Went to have our lunch come dinner after that.

We spent about 1 hour plus eating and chatting over there. A guy then suddenly came to us introduced his perfumes to us, not interested in it and then he left. Went arcade for my games! :D Played 1 round of basketball with her, I won! Weetz! Walked around awhile and then left to interchange and headed home. :) Actually meeting friend, but then something cropped up in between. Well, next time perhaps. :)

I bought afew clothings a month ago, but didn't have the chance to wear it as I'm working almost everyday. :/ Sian half. Full shift tomorrow, goodnight!

不够勇敢
守在你身边看你每一个笑脸笑得那么甜是他给了你誓言
不敢有埋怨都是我心甘情愿或许有一天我的爱你能看见
一天一点你渐渐走远我却像空气被忽略

只怪我的爱不够勇敢一直沉默的作你的依赖
让一切石沉大海 Baby now I need you by my side
过去的一切该怎么放开 Without you I can't fall in love again
(I can't never fall in love)

明明知道直到有一天发现你不再有笑脸

11 october 2010 - 我一直都在

2010-10-11T00:06:00.001+08:00

遥望著你背影有孤单太苍白我多麽想陪著你走过人山人海
当天空变灰白你的忧伤澎湃我多麽想走进你紧锁的心海

我一直都在你身后等待等你有一天回过头看我
我的笑送给你希望你快乐你的难过都给我
关於你的一切我都好好收藏著

我一直都在你身后等待等你有一天能感觉到我
就算我再你世界渺小像一颗尘埃我也会给你我所有的光和热

我鼓起勇气呐喊你要听的见我不许你再孤单要你拥抱我给的温暖

2010-10-06T23:25:00.006+08:00

Did this with Toh Qingyan, JunDe and HuiJuan few weeks ago. (Y) I like! Hopefully will be able to play this again together after our attachments. :) Cant wait for our next outing! East coast park again! :D

I've said NO to fastfoods for 4 days alrdy! ^^ I'm getting fatter as time goes by )': I wna maintain myself at XS/S sizes, so I must work hard before jumping to M size! :/ And I've also promised that I will stop eating fastfoods for 2 weeks, so 10 more days to go! I know I can do it! Weeeeetz! I'm gonna work hard for my goal! HAHAH. (Y)

Full shift tomorrow :/ Goodnight!

06 October 2010 - RIP, Mrs Lee.

2010-10-06T00:07:00.001+08:00

如果你不再出现我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间让我们试验什么叫永远
想念变成怀念心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切你最后属于谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现我会不会觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间总要把诺言一点点摧毁
想念变成怀念心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切你最后属于谁

*May mother of Singapore, Mrs Lee rest in peace.

04 October 2010 - That's life.

2010-10-04T00:08:00.001+08:00

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go of something or someone isn't the end of the world, it's the begining of a new life. I've moved on, forgetting all the mistakes that I've made and chances that I've missed. That's life.

02 October 2010 - Time flies.

2010-10-02T00:17:00.002+08:00

Time flies~
It's October now! Two more months to end of year 2010, and I'm turning 18 real soon! :D I can't wait for that day to arrive! :) I seriously hope that October would be a good month for me. I just want to be happy everyday, that's all. :)

Attachment started few days ago, it's just like normal working days for me. Nothing special, only that I've got to note down what I've done at the end of the day. :/ I've learnt nothing new nor special. I've learnt it all months ago. Folding of apperals, displaying merchandises, setting up window displays, making payments, settlements and etc, I've learnt it all long ago. I agreed with what Mr Yeo told me, I'm just going through my IA while working. I find it boring now. :/ What should I do, 7 more weeks to go. JIAYOU EVERYONE :)

22 September 2010 - East coast!

2010-09-22T23:36:00.006+08:00

Woohooooo~ It's wednesday, the day that I've been waiting for so long! :D I really did enjoyed myself today. Really enjoyed myself although that damn rain which stopped us from cycling halfway through! :/ Well, at least I still managed to cycle for about 30 mins (?) Due to the heavy rain which caused all of our clothes wet, we went around looking for shampoo so that we will be able to clean up ourselves. But only Meijun, Adallyn and I went to clean ourselves up. :/ Damn shiok, very refreshing! HAHAH. :)

After that, bused to Bedok inter then took mrt to paya lebar and lasty took circle line to Bishan. Headed to PizzaHut for dinner, waited for it damn long but afterall was good! Damn full! :D Then went up to arcade and played one round of basketball only. ): Walked to somewhere near to play candles. And out of the sudden, I have a very bad feeling until now. :/ Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh. Went seperate ways with HuiJuan, Desmond & Junyang. Took mrt with the rest, and took bus home after that. Thanks Ahxiang for calling me & chatted on phone, at a very right time! (Y)

Sadly, we didnt took any group photo due to the rain that messed everything up! ._. Anyway, super thanks Qingyan, Junde, Meijun, Desmond, Adallyn, Huijuan & lastly Junyang for such a awesome outing! ♥ I really enjoyed myself today!

21 September 2010 - Fun day ahead!

2010-09-21T20:53:00.002+08:00

It's wednesday tomorrow! :D
I can't wait for it! It sure going to be a fun day ahead! :D

20 September 2010 - 习惯两个人

2010-09-20T21:00:00.002+08:00

像种感冒爱情出现了忽冷忽热的挣扎
才刚坐下有说有笑一眨眼有微笑是挣扎
晚上一样花好几天的冷战把情绪转换
我坐立不安怎么比分手还难

你是我的肩膀我的信仰是我的温暖
有时候我在想在你身旁时爱你还是爱上陪伴

习惯两个人不见不散习惯一整夜去寻找对方
习惯让我们懒散不再坚强对寂寞丧失抵抗
习惯两个人睡单人床才能沉睡到天亮
如果你离开了我束手无策怎么办

总是习惯若无其事的继续为爱而繁忙
究竟是装宽容大方还是忍受房间空旷
我们总说时间抖了就该懂得好聚好散
我坐立不安陷入爱的拉锯战

习惯了圆满怎能又从新习惯空出的另一半
但愿我爱上的不是爱上你的习惯

17 September 2010 . HOLIDAYS

2010-09-17T01:35:00.002+08:00

It's H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-S now!

After the stressful 9 months, finally I got back my holidays! I'm going to cherish this 1 whole week without school, without work! I'm going to enjoy myself, relax myself throughout this one week! :D

Hopefully will be able to meet Qingyan, Meijun & co for east coast next week! We're going to enjoy ourselves like there's no tomorrow! :D I'm so happy now! H-A-P-P-Y! After so long, I finally get the chance to enjoy holidays without to worry about project deadlines, exams week and so on! :)

And, I would like to thank Meijun for being there whenever I needs someone. Be it for school projects, emotionals or whatsoever. Thanks <3

15 September 2010 - Friends?

2010-09-16T00:31:00.002+08:00

Another beautiful lesson learnt, thanks God.
I'm thankful that something happened in school today. Through this matter, I get to know each and everyone of my friends clearly. You may think that I'm cruel, petty or whatsoever., I don't give it a damn at all. To me, once you proved me that this friendship isn't worth fighting back for, then so be it. I wont waste my time explaining, and fightting it back. No point saying so much already, what's done cannot be undone. You ought to know that actions speak louder than words.

- Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks.

09 september 2010 -

2010-09-09T00:05:00.001+08:00

Within this short and "sweet" 9 months, I've learnt many things the hardest way.
It doesn't pay to be kind, I can't help but to agree with this. If you're softhearted kind of person, that's it. You're sure gonna lose out, and I'm already one of those victims. I don't know since when I've changed to who I am now. Perhaps it was my softhearted heart that changed me. :)

Ever since I've stepped into this school, I realised I've forgotten many good/ positive things on Earth. Who brainwashed me? Someone must have brainwashed me and I can never get it back again. Because what's done cannot be undone, isn't it?

I've long forgotten what's group project/work. It's either you do it all by yourself or someone else is gonna finish it up for you. It will never be completed as a group. And out of all the sweet talkings and empty promises I've heard, I've got enough. Real enough of all these.

Why is that so? Didn't I said clear enough? Didn't I showed well enough? Can you imagine how disappointed I was? No, you will never know although you've been telling me you know you know. But deep down, you guys know nothing unless it happened to you. Trust me.

08 September 2010 - Enjoyed

2010-09-08T22:00:00.003+08:00

Had SBM sales today, I'm glad that it turned out pretty well. :) Though in the begining school was so quiet and only managed to sell a few stocks. But afterall, I've gained an experience! :)
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28 August 2010 - Cherish myself.

2010-08-28T23:45:00.004+08:00

Time flies, it's coming to the end of august already. Just a blink of eyes, year 2010 is ending soon. Till now I cant believe that it's already end of august. Time is passing way too fast, 24 hours a day will never be enough for me. Sometimes I just hope that I can have more than just 24 hours a day, because there's still so many things left undone.

Although I've been complaining that time is not enough & etc. But on the other hand, I actually do hoped that time could pass a little faster. Because things aren't getting any better for me this year, not at all. And I really hate it.

So many things happened, be it good or bad ones. I've seen through all. Being a fool for countless of times. But it no longer matters anymore, because it's already past. I've learnt the hardest way. I'm not going to be softhearted towards other people anymore. I'm going to trust no one but myself. I'm going to pamper myself, to love myself even more. Yes, I believe I will be the happiest girl on Earth sooner or later. :)

26 August 2010 - Meant nothing actually.

2010-08-26T12:43:00.003+08:00

Finally a off day~
It's time to clear some of my projects. Hmmm. How pathetic can I be? Working so hard during school holidays, end up cant even rest during off day. I make sure this is the last time I'm gonna be so softhearted! People are taking advantages of it!

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22 August 2010 - 笨蛋

2010-08-22T00:47:00.001+08:00

冰箱结霜咖啡滚烫煮不好最简单的早餐
我的生活是一团混乱维持单身感觉茫然
喜不喜欢习不习惯我总是说不出个答案
一个人来又一个人往怎么让他流连忘返

我不想当笨蛋我在墙上写满渴望
我可以大哭一场房间还是空空荡荡
我绝对不逞强,该属于我任其自然
可是我也要安全感在某个适当程度的主张
纵然是了解眼光也是温暖

每个早上都想赖床没有梦是最让人沮丧
我的眼睛盯着天花板也跑不出任何对象

21 August 2010 - FML

2010-08-21T09:30:00.002+08:00

Just what's wrong with my life?! August is really not my month! My earpiece spoilt, skin became super dry and i don't know where did I placed my wallet now. How unlucky can I be? Can my life just turn a little better?

18 August 2010 - sick

2010-08-18T11:08:00.002+08:00

I found out that August is really not my month! Many things happened unexpectedly. And yesterday I tried to skip meals because I wna lose the 2kg which I've gained last month. End up I ran to ate 3 breads which then caused me suffering the whole night! And now I guess i'm falling sick soon! And I realised whenever I'm having my holidays I would fall sick. How am i gonna enjoy my holiday like this?! May God bless me.

& I'm using my phone to update this post. Hehehe!

16 August 2010 - Hair.

2010-08-16T11:03:00.003+08:00

Recently Suntec areas are very happening, I don't know why either. There are spotlights everywhere on top of every building. And I passed by there and saw it. The whole view was so damn beautiful. But I'd prefer fireworks.

Sometimes I really loves my hair, while sometimes I don't really like. Especially when I wanted so much to have my hair tied up, I'll get mad over it. Maybe that's what others called it, bad hair day? Hmmm.

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15 August 2010 - Never one.

2010-08-15T23:36:00.002+08:00

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again & tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken and I'd rather remember it as it was as its best than mend it and see the broken pieces as long as I lived.

14 August 2010 - If I let you go

2010-08-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

Day after day, time passed away & I just can't get you off my mind.
Nobody knows, I hide it inside. I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show to letting you know, I've never felt so much love before.
And once again I'm thinking about taking the easy way out.

But if I let you go I will never know what my life would be holding you close to me.
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? How will I know if I let you go.

Night after night I hear myself say, why can't this feeling just fade away.
There's no one like you, you speak to my heart. It's such a shame we're worlds apart.
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose. But sooner or later I gotta choose.
And once again I'm thinking about taking the easy way out.

13 August 2010 - Window displays

2010-08-13T21:01:00.004+08:00

Finally, it's holidays now! :D
I'm going to enjoy it although I will be working everyday throughout this 2 weeks of holidays. :/ I'm so gonna go shopping again once I get my pay! :) Have been feeling so stress for this whole month, so it's time to pamper myself! :)

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And had my VSM window display presentation today! The time passed faster than I expected! Though many things cropped up, but still good teamwork! :) Finally another part of the group projects cleared. It's time to rest a little before I start off with the report. :)

And working starts tomorrow, and it's 7th month now. :/ May God bless me! :) I hope I wont fall sick again, by the way I'm still having cough till now! Super hate that feelings, because I have to control my diets. :/ And Josephine & Lili gonna force me to drink hell lots of plain water already. Ahhh! ):

12 August 2010 - Backstabbers.

2010-08-12T22:32:00.003+08:00

Dealing with backstabbers, there was one thing that I learned. They're only powerful when you got your back turned.

Well.. You may look like a cool shero infront of your friends but I'm so sorry to say, you're nothing in my eyes. :) & Before you go, I would like to take the knives out of our backs. You'll probably need it again. :)

11 August 2010 - Sheeps

2010-08-11T19:40:00.003+08:00

Finally a day off from stress! :)

But after the clock strikes 12am, I'll be back with my stress again. :/ Visual Merchandising presentation on this coming Friday. And the theme given is Christmas and I've no idea what to do on the actual day of presentation. I shall prepare to fail this module already.

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10 August 2010, National day.

2010-08-10T00:02:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!

I wanted to update before the clock strikes 12am, so that I will be able to wish on time. But I'm late due to facebook-ing too much. ): Such a pity, it happens only once a year. :/ But anyway, this year National Day doesn't really seems to be one, because it's way too quiet. :/

Josephine, Lili and I used company's laptop to watch NDP live show. Both Josephine and I kept running in and out of the shop just to see the fireworks. Super beautiful I swear. Unable to catch some beautiful photos of it but, still managed to take 3 of it. :/ And a guy shocked me, talked to me unexpectedly. -.-!

Afterall, still not a bad one.

And the day before yesterday, I don't know what happened on Earth, at the top of all building located near Suntec area, there were this spotlight. And it made the whole view damn beautiful!

That's all. It's time to sleep~ Shall update again tomorrow.

06 August 2010 - Disappointments

2010-08-06T16:21:00.005+08:00

It's never easy to build up a trust for a person.
Yet, no one seems to appreciate it, not at all!
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Be it good or bad ones, they are still lies. Please understand this sentence.
So tell me now, how many more disappointments to go?